Sat Jan 9:
That Firewalk Challenge game was garbage! The sauces don’t taste that great and they are not as hot from one level to the next as I thought! Plan B: Make my own hot sauces and do some blind taste testing/scale rating. I feel ready to try the Carolina Reaper! (my confidence is overreaching, but only slightly 🙂 )
At 4:00 am I woke up to a massive headache – my temples, inside my ears and the base of my skull was throbbing! I took a whole bottle of Advil (coming to you dead from the slab!)
If the people that stormed the capital in the SS were Black – they’d all be dead (IMO). Systemic racism, racism, discrimination, prejudice (although hard to see until it becomes discriminatory), regardless of who is on the receiving end, makes my heart ache. At the same time, I’m so oblivious to certain things that I don’t recognize them when they are right in front of me. I think, for me, that’s a good thing, cause I’m hypersensitive – Maybe that’s why I’m still hopeful and optimistic and think that anyone can change if they want to!
Make sure you surround yourself with people who are going to challenge and question you and not just go along with your way of thinking! Learn to think critically and be open to (re)examining and rewriting your beliefs and values when presented with new information, especially when you find it difficult to face! UGH!!! What I’m trying to say isn’t coming out in an eloquent fashion – let’s talk about something else.
I dropped my sister and her bf at the airport around 6:30 am – They’re off to Jamaica for a week! FYI – I still don’t like her guy! I just don’t like him! I can’t put my finger on it but there’s something! It’s been six or seven years – he hasn’t grown on me! Thankfully! Maybe it’s how he talks to her. Maybe it’s cause I feel he doesn’t like it when her and I hang out together! Maybe I’m keen to his double standards. I.JUST.DON’T.LIKE.HIM! But she seems happy so I keep my mouth shut and smile when I would prefer to pull out my wire cutters and take off his head – one snip at a time!
As much as I love to believe people change, I know that most don’t truly, fundamentally – they hang on to old, outdated ways of thinking like their life depends on it!
I sat down to draw but couldn’t finish. Something’s bothering me! If I could change the world! I need to unplug again – get as far away from reality, and the people in it, as possible! I have a quarter of a Maple Leaf Nature’s Harvest edible left – the only reason it survived so long is cause it taste so awful!
I feel my, I’m buying stuff to compensate for something coming on! Let’s hope it doesn’t cause too much damage!
Goodnight!
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