Resign (Sonnet X)

And tell me when did you forget
The many words that were said
We're one short of a loving duet
Always I dread, our wedding bed

Those words, all of them rotten
What was laid bare at the altar
Is useless as moth eaten cotton
Waver and stutter promises falter

This was one-sided from the start
A lamb to the slaughter, freely I went
What happen to me. I used to be smart
The author of a life racked with torment

Yes! I am the victim-blaming my faulty thinking
It's too late to get out, I deal with it by drinking