Identity Anxiety Audit

Identity Anxiety Audit

Before I grow up, I’m gonna seal my fate in an envelope and send it to God via Jesus.

How was your Canada Day? Shit was way too hot for me; I didn’t even watch the fireworks out my window. But I did write three poems.

From my AI poetry analysis (more on that below):

Your record is 4 poems in a day, and you’ve hit that three times:

  • June 8, 2020 — Interdimensional Fright, おはよう!, Victorian, Game Over
  • June 26, 2022 — Brevity, Empty, Codependent (Sonnet XII), con-stitution
  • March 22, 2025 — Astray, Shelf Life, Living Room, À Côté

This weekend, Goat Baby and I are gonna go to a soca party with my spider friend Phil.

Goat Baby is gonna be my wing animal.

I expect to come away with a few good men.


I was lying in bed the other day and had a great idea. Since I’m always paranoid about sounding the same in my poems (using the same words, talking about the same things in the same way), I decided to export all my poems from WordPress, and I asked AI to review them for patterns. 

Best idea ever. It called out structural habits, topics I return to, and image clusters. For example, “You used food and drink references in 262 poems,” and it broke it down:

  • meat/fish (18)
  • sweet/sugar/honey (26)

It categorized all 262 poems. Neat right! But… it didn’t stop there; it also pointed out things I do less often, AND it created a pre-publish checklist for me. Thank you, AI.

The feeling was always there, but now I have proof. Which means I won’t have to sit with this anxiety anymore.

I can review my checklist once I feel the piece is done, then challenge myself and modify for growth. OR…Before I start writing, I can even look at the things I don’t do often and go there instead.

I’m excited. And I love how TT5 displays tags, so I need to organize them. Something else AI is helping with. That’s my project for today!

Hey, Jesus God, are you reading my poetry? You learning anything? You gonna be more loving and inclusive?

your servant, sam

I’ve been coming across articles about people impersonating Indigenous folks – some of these impersonators built a professional/academic life around that persona, and now they are being found out through genealogy, records, family histories, and sometimes DNA.

How come nobody tries to impersonate Black people?

Or maybe they do; it’s just not newsworthy because who, in their right mind, would want to do that?

Pretending to be Black doesn’t come with institutional reverence, or land acknowledgment glow-ups.

Yay! We used to live there! We use to own that!

Imagine cosplaying someone’s identity for museum entry, tax deductions, and other benefits, while systemic gaps and a legacy of colonial policies mean basic needs are still waiting to be met.

But at least you get to see the latest AGO exhibits without paying. Bonus!

Can we get a comprehensive system overhaul for wealth building and total self-sufficiency, please?

And the last most exciting thing! My rower is supposed to get delivered today. I have enough gym equipment to build a circuit.

Thu Jul 2

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