Journal Entry – Thu Oct 22

UGH! Conservatives! Stop tormenting the Liberals and me (by proxy)! I woke up at 3 am. I had to sleep today because by 3 pm, I was ready to fall off my chair. I gotta get back on track. I love chrysanthemum tea and flowers 🙂 I have a sugar headache.

I had a strange dream – I was digging a hole with a bunch of other people but we couldn’t get it right. The dimensions were off, we’d dig in the wrong place. It would rain and we’d have start over. We didn’t have the right tools. I know all my dreams are strange but I think this dream is a reflection of what’s happening at work this week. I think the hole is the foundation/fundamentals, if you don’t get the foundation right, the building will fall.

Hooray! – It only took me two hours to get caught up on my time log. I hate feeling like I don’t know enough. And even though I know I know, that doesn’t stop me from feeling like I don’t. It’s a vicious cycle. I think it’s the self-doubt that bugs me the most. Other times, I’m over the moon with confidence, and I will wave to The Man while passing.

“The problem with the world is that the intelligent people are full of doubts, while the stupid ones are full of confidence.”

Charles Bukowski

This weekend I plan to watch 60 Minutes – I only read about what happened during Lesley Stahl’s interview with the American President. The final debate is tonight – I really don’t get what the big deal is about muting the microphone – you get your two minutes or whatever, then the other person gets theirs. Well … It seems I am not the only one who makes mountains out of molehills (good to know).

Former CEO of Alphabet Inc. said social networks are “amplifiers for idiots and crazy people.” Well said! (I can’t remember where I read it). I think he went on to say that wasn’t what they intended – that saying about the road to hell being paved with good intentions applies here. 

If you cannot regulate yourself then you will be regulated!

The revolution will be live and televised and published and podcasted and Facebooked and Twittered and ‘Grammed and Snapchatted! You just make sure you get the whole story, not someone’s adulterated version of it. (check your sources)

I will be on my houseboat during the revolution!

It’s a bit of a shit show “in the office.” This is the first software company I worked at since I started working at software companies back in 2011 that doesn’t have a release calendar – and I’ve worked at many companies. Not all companies published their calendars, but they all had one where dates can be referenced because it also helps clients plan their work and what they need to do to get ready for the release.

The chief architect doesn’t want to set a release date because he didn’t get official signoff from our FR client on post-implementation changes. Our FR account manager (AM) doesn’t want to go back to the client and ask for formal approval when we discussed the requirements multiple times already. 

I think my convo with our FR AM this morning helped to get things moving. I understand both sides, but while we are changing our processes, you have to compromise – meet in the middle.  

During our meetings, I can feel the architect’s lack of respect and trust for the FR AM. For me, it is especially noticeable because I get both sides, and I know their backstories. I see the difference when the architect talks to the CA AM vs the FR AM. 

It sucks, and nobody is going to do anything about it! Do you have to like someone to respect them? Do you have to like someone to be kind to them?

Do you know when to leave well enough alone?  I sure as hell don’t because your well enough is not mine!

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