I was going to call this my Weight Loss Journey, but then I thought, ewww, that sounds like a pamphlet from a sad diet club where they promise you a buncha shit but nothing happens and you’ve been to this diet club so many times you can recite the pamphlet like Satan with Bible scriptures.
Then I started wondering if people have weight gain journeys. Weight gain happens gradually, and journeys are deliberate.
How long have I been talking to you about losing weight? Since the fall of 2021, when I was going to LA Fitness, I had that trainer guy I loved working out with. I weigh about forty more pounds than I did then, maybe fifty.
I went on my artist date and was like, you know what, as my friend, you’re gonna go on this journey with me whether you like it or not.
This is the official start of my eating without regret journey—it’s deliberate, and I’m gonna have some fun with it. I got here because I like to eat and while I’m working on this I’ll be growing in other areas too (growing up, not out).
🎶 I like to eat and I cannot lie 🎶
At first, I didn’t want to tell you how much I weighed. I had to sit with that and wonder why.
Why is how much I weigh a sensitive topic? Would it be sensitive if we were in a gravity-free zone? What about if I were the fittest among everyone on the planet? What if I were a man? Would I be ashamed to share my weight then? Is it shame?
Well fuck shame.
As of Tue May 20, 8:44 AM:
Current:
Weight: 189.6 lbs
Body Fat: 42.5%
Goal: I'll decide if I need to lose more when I get there.
Weight: 140 lbs
Body Fat: 20%
I don't think I want to be as small as I was when I was in my 30's even early 40's
Anyhow I’m gonna keep track of this shit like it’s a highly complex, super risky project. And I’m gonna have fun along the way—I gotta bring the jokes in; there’s no other way to live.
The first of many. As I change other areas of my life, I will share that with you, too.
Also, something work-related is bothering me, and I will dedicate a separate post series to that, as well. I will tell you exactly how I feel and what I wrestle with. It’s based on the poem I wrote, Position Wanted
Tue May 20
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