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I always say I am going to write everyday. I got a book called Embrace Your Weird. I’m working from home today, minding my business, writing meeting notes with Paranormal Activity playing in the background. Then the urge to write approached me and said “Take a break. This is important work too.” So … I…

It started on Christmas Eve 2019. I got into a fight with my son and it was awful – I called the non-emergency police. After that incident, I didn’t even want to have Christmas with my family. I was angry, hurt and angry. I was thinking “Eff it, I should just take off, rent a…

It’s summer. I don’t keep track of the boys’ comings and goings. Struggling to do it during the school year is enough. What this means? They are left to lead their lives how they see fit. Often, when I get up for work at 3:45 am Matt is still awake. And I think “geeze! Should…

I’m tired of myself Believing my own lies My consistent inconsistency Today I found a habit tracker – Just a spreadsheet However … I love everything that is new So, I am going to use it (for at least two weeks) More – I hope because this time is going to be different I am…

The Background: Up late with Matt, he’s 13. We’re looking for something to watch on Netflix. The Convo: Me: How bout this? Matt: No! That looks stupid. Me: You look stupid. Matt: That’s not something you should say to your child but whatever.

The Background: I’m in the kitchen watching dishes, playing jazz and I’m hearing all kinds of noise coming from one of the bedrooms. The Convo: Matt: Ahhhhhhhhh! Mom! (more screaming). Me: André! Leave that boy alone and go finish your homework. André: I can’t it’s too hard. Matt: You’re too hard. Me: That’s what she…

i never forget what i told myself yesterdayOr the day before thatThe week leading up to that dayThe month before, leading up to that weekThe year before, leading up to that month … Still here. Right where i started no progress madei guess; maybe; micro minuscule – so small that it is not worth measuring.…