Non-Religious Backsliding
On the night of Monday, January 13, 2025, I received 6.5 hours of unadulterated sleep. But Tuesday night, when I went for my sleep study, I didn’t sleep a wink, which is highly annoying because now I have to go back. Wednesday night was a bust, too. I got about two hours.
I’m counting my lucky stars, though, because it’s been ages since I slept for 6+ hours. I have my bedtime routine, and I need to stick to it – the disruption of going to the sleep study may have contributed to my lacklustre snooze fest on Wednesday.
Nursery Rhyme Interlude:
That’s all I remember.
Simple Simon met a pie man going to the fair
Said Simple Simon to the pie man – let me taste your wares
Unfortunately, I am still obese; however, I have been eating on time and making better food choices. A while ago I stopped drinking alcohol mainly because I wanted to stay in ketosis but a few weeks ago I learned about all the data they have on the bad things alcohol does to your body. I’m glad fat as energy is a goal because I might drink regardless – I mean, something’s gotta grave ya. (I might open a bucket kickin’ business – they make good money.)
and I’ve learned that cheat days are not for me. I repeat, cheat days are not for me. Once I cheat, those heavenly floodgates of sugar open, and I can’t close them for days, then I gotta work hard as shit to get back into ketosis. I’m an all-or-nothing baby; that’s me! However, I have noticed that the process becomes easier every time.
My new year is filled with sick days. I recently got sick again from Dee—she went to a friend’s birthday and brought an infectious gift home—but I am confident that once I can get 6 hours of sleep per night, everything else will fall into place, including my weight.
Blogging Schedule and Epsom Salt
Last Saturday, I went to Thermea with my few remaining long-time girlfriends, and I still have Epsom saltwater in my ears. However, I got the periodic table idea and many others while chillin’ in the Källa pool. I tried to play over the thoughts in my head so I wouldn’t forget because I had nothing to write on/with.
The Periodic table was going to be my Wednsday post but I am not happy with how it’s shaping up, I have some ideas to take it in a different direction.
Music Interlude:
🎶
Fame! I’m gonna live forever.
Light up the sky like a flame. Fame!
I feel it coming together.
People will see me and smile. Fame!
Baby, remember my name.
Remember. Remember. Remember.
Fame!
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Do you remember that show? Debbie Allen was a dance teacher at an arts-based high school and an old white guy with a full head and bread of gray – he might have been the music instructor.
I know I have a posting schedule, but I don’t want to post things that don’t feel polished or genuine. My authentic voice is important to me, and rushing to meet a deadline risks compromising the quality of what I share. I’m still working toward building a two-week buffer of content so I’m not left scrambling on Sundays, but it’s a challenge …
There’s this constant tension between sticking to a schedule and honoring my creative process. Sometimes I want to choke my creative process into hurrying up but then I’d be dead. At the same time, it’s frustrating to miss my deadlines. I want to be consistent but I value authenticity over consistency. I’m not giving up on balancing the discipline of regular posting with the freedom to create at my own pace but it feels like a 50k puzzle where pieces are scattered and might even be missing, but I’ll find what works for me.
I hope you are having a January that is good – whatever your good is.
Thu Jan 16
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