It’s Swedish Death Cleaning long weekend! I’m death cleaning for Jesus!
Remember a few months back I talked about consuming less? Well, I am also letting go of things I’ve been holding onto. I wish I could throw the boys away like some of my other garbage.
Dating is going well. I’m treating it like a game. I met a few guys and I probably said shit I shouldn’t but that’s me and I’m going all in with no room for regrets. I’m gonna be vulnerable and silly and playful and Down’s Syndrome retarded right from the jump so they know what they’re getting. That makes sense right!?
If we get along, we get along. If we don’t we don’t. The sooner I know the better. Quantity will get me to quality faster. It’s like picking through all the coal to find the diamond. That’s my theory …
and luckily, for me, it’s always been easy to cut people loose. I don’t know if that’s good but I firmly believe you need to let go of some people and you need to be able to do it as easily as taking out the garbage cause them folks is trash – they’re just festering and stinking up your life.
Cleaning up also includes removing landfill worthy people!
You can do it! I know you can!
They can’t be recycled
They shouldn’t be reused
You could reduce them but that may cost you your freedom
Rip off the bandaid!
Dre said he doesn’t want me dating because he already has a stepmom, and doesn’t want a stepdad. I’m like dude, you’re fuckin’ twenty, leave me alone! I think he’s afraid a stepdad won’t put up with his lazy ass.
Dating with grown kids is fun. They’re involved and we run jokes n shit.
Yesterday when I was getting ready for my date, in the shower I was like, Oh shit! I didn’t do my eyebrows, didn’t get a pedicure (my feet are a disaster). Didn’t wax anywhere. It’s been so long I forgot what I’m supposed to do. Dre said I look homeless cause I didn’t dress up – I wore jeans and a tee.
They were making fun of me too and laughing cause I’m gonna meet this guy in the park. Dee was like, “WTF! Who goes to the park for a first date!” But I was cool with the park. I think it’s a nice natural/neutral space; we walk, talk, see if there’s any chemistry and no one has to spend money.
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Is he going down or is the elevator?
Love in an elevator
Livin’ it up while I’m going down
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I don’t ever feel lonely – my whole almost half a century. I’m happy about that. I’ve seen friends make bad decisions because of loneliness. Whether I meet my twin-flame-life-soul-mate, it doesn’t matter to me, I got writing material! Bonus! But I’m not enjoying Hinge – I feel I can’t be my true weirdo-artsy-self and it sucks.
When I grow up I’m gonna be a charlatan and start The Church of Charlatanism … Dre didn’t like my latest poster – he said, “What’s wrong with you!” three or four times. I was laughing so hard.
Happy Thanksgiving, In case me not talk to you tomorrow.
Sun Oct 8
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